She really believed things would change, and for her sake I hoped they would. But to be honest, I hated her for it.

These vengeful hours
will be my undoing

Too late to be night
Too early to be day
Too lost to be found

Impatiently I wait
breathlessly consuming

Every word

Every thought

Every image

Every bit of you

A dangerous tool
at my fingertips
I caress it's jagged teeth
lingering over the thought

Considering

The implications
and consequences

of. my. every. word.

I give in

A dialogue has been opened.

There is no solution to be reached.

Only an aching heart, yearning for the past.

Yearning for a future that cannot be.

Searching...

Too much time.

Too much change.

Too much life.

I don't know you anymore, you who I knew better than I knew myself. I have been given exactly one ultimatum by him. One. You cannot be part of me. I cannot begin to express how much that hurts. It's for my own good, I'd only ache over you anyway. More than I already do. So long it's been since I've hugged you, really hugged you.

I want my friend back.

Once upon a time
You were my everything
With all this time that's passed
I'm not surprised that you can't see
Your role in my life is gone
But in my heart only changed

How is it that I've put you out of my life and you're still fucking my shit up?

Worried

You don't want the life I do.

I don't want the life you do.

We agreed to leave it at that.

But then you say you worry about me.

I'm going to become too dependent on the man who is to be My Husband.

Sometimes I think you want me independent.

Alone.

Like you.

Have you wondered why you don't hear from me? Maybe you should call instead of waiting for me to do it.

I am so sick of hearing you lament about long passed relationships! Get over it already!

I've paid my dues. Honey, you can keep the change.